Wednesday, July 24, 2013

The Beauty and Power of Doubt

From the Universe to all of us:

For most of a living person's life, they seem to always be asking two or three basic questions:

1.) What is the meaning of all of this?
2.) How do I do better?/ How do I find perfection in my life?
3.) Why don't I deserve the same treatment as my neighbor, friend, sister, brother or aunt?/ Why is their life so much better than mine?

Some living human souls focus on all of the questions all of the time. Some get hung up on one of the three. And others go through each step by step, until they reach the last one and find their way back at the first. 

Now, please stop me if you have heard this one, but if you are saying right now in your head:

"Well, I am so enlightened that I have moved passed all of these questions. They no longer hang me up. They no longer bring me down. I am able to float above. I don't have a doubt or care in the world." 

If you are saying this right now, at this very second, sadly you are either a very convincing liar (you can even convince yourself of untruths), you are highly susceptible to gullibility, or you are a very self gratifying human being, who is also afraid of failure, so you deny the possibility of its existence.

No matter what description fits your character or situation, the point is, if you are human being on this planet, experiencing waking life, experiencing connection and separation side-by-side, experiencing day and night, and all of the opposites that make wholeness possible, then you are consumed at least occasionally by doubt, and wonder, and painful moments of spiritual stress. 

Don't deny it because I am here today to tell you that it is simply wonderful to ask these questions. It is wonderful to feel a little lost and confused and off the beaten path. It is wonderful to question and feel cheated. Because it means that you are alive, that you are awake, that you are experiencing things and that you are paying attention. Rejoice in the uncertainty. Rejoice in the moments of jealousy and rejoice in the moments of pain!

Yep, that is my silly little stance of the the day. Rejoice in the self-doubt! It is not a sin to doubt. It is not a sin to question. It is not a sin to wonder and feel "less-than".

The only true sin is fear because that is the only thing that separates you from me, from God, from Love, from Light, from the Universe. Now, we can talk about the mechanics of that separation another time, but for now believe me that frequency of fear does separate.

"But God", you may say. "Isn't doubt a frequency of fear? When I doubt something or question it, doesn't it mean that I don't believe in you? Doesn't it mean that I am fearful that you won't provide for me?"

No. When you doubt it simply means that you are re-evaluating the situation. Think of doubt as a way of fine tuning your frequency to me. The process of doubting things or questioning them allows you to sort out the static from the true signs, symbols and messages. Doubt should always turn you inward and reconnect you to yourself. 

Doubt should always pull you back into your heart and force you to ask, "Who am I?" "What separates me from the flesh of the person next to me?" "Why is my life set up differently?" "What is my soul seeking?" "Why do I feel so out of balance?" "What does the world hold in store for me?" "What am I searching for?"

Yep. Doubt always pulls you into your heart. Well, unless you fear it. Then it definitely pulls your roots up from the ground, and tucks your head into your shoulders. Then, there is no way for your Divine Guidance to get through. Your receiver is down and floating through the air.

Do not fear your doubt. Do not label it as sinister and unworthy. Allow it to bring you inward, to ask the questions that need to be asked, so that you can fine tune the system and truly here my words, feel my love, and see my beautiful signs.

Doubt is not a sin. Doubt is a gift. Doubt is a tool for happiness.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

SHAME- Should Have Already Mastered Everything

I'm dedicating this to my friends at the Purple Door who have been awesome to journey with these past few weeks. This is the first journal entry I have done in awhile, and my first meditation in quite some time. I'm pretty sure this is quite fitting to everything we have been doing and discussing during our Sunday sessions. Thank you to my friends there, my beautiful spirit family, and the Pulse of the Universe itself. I am glad to know you all <3


Beautiful picture of Walnut Creek CA, by Patrick Smith Photography
When coming to a fork in the road, one always seems to ask, "What one is the perfect road? Which one will get me to my destination the quickest and with the least amount of difficulty?"

Then they go on to say in their one way conversation with their brain, "I have to get this right the first time. I am too important to find myself walking in circles. I need to get to the next part of my adventure." And then the best of the best, or the worst of the worst depending on how you look at it, will say to themselves, "There are so many people counting on me. I can't screw this up. If I don't get there on time, everything is going to fall apart. Too many people need me. I can't screw this up. Now, what path to chose? Which one? Gosh darn it, why is this so hard? I need to do this NOW!"

Ah, yes. The classic, "I must do this NOW." Similar, and honestly on an energy level almost identical to, " I can't screw this up. I'm the only one that can figure this out. They need me to be my best. I should have already figured this out. Gosh darn it, why I am I so stupid and slow. I'm not going to succeed."

Yep. That's right saying, "I need to do this right NOW-this very second, or the world is going to die," sends the same frequency of light into the air as, "I am a complete mess, and there is now way I am ever going to be successful."

Yep. Placing a time limit on yourself, being impatient, stressing your body out, pushing it too hard to fast, leads to failure. The end. Simple lesson.

But for some silly reason I have a feeling you are not going to believe me. Well, then less go back to this road scenario:

You are out on the road. Maybe you are 29 or so. Your wondering what you should be doing next. You feel insignificant because you aren't on the same life path as the rest of your peers. You feel like you are lacking something. That you haven't really begun to live or experience anything. You know that you are meant to do great things, and you are 100% right, you are. You are meant to fly and float, and love and live, and give comfort and guidance and praise and hope and light, all over the place. You are meant to be a man of the people. You are meant to wake people up. You know this to be an absolute truth. So, know all you have to do is figure out how to get there.

Dun, dun, dun....

You hit the fork in the road. Damn it! Why are there choices? You need to move faster. You start thinking of all the time you are wisting. You start thinking about the possibility of making the wrong choice. Gosh darn it, there is no way you can make the wrong choice you have people to save! People to love. People to bring to the light. Oh my God, how are you going to make it through? Oh my God, how are you going to handle this? You are already 29. You have already wasted so many years of your life being confused and not moving forward. Why are you so slow? You are worthless. "Damn it, there is no way I am ever going to choose the right path? I am doomed to fail!"

And that is how you set yourself up to fail everytime you fill yourself with expectations of who you should be, where you should be and what you should be doing.

My loves, my lights, my beautiful, beautiful friends you SHOULD be doing nothing. You are DOING everything. If you feel like you are moving too slow, then your brain is probably moving too fast.

Where are you now? Why are you now? And what path is calling to you? Because my Little Lights of Planet Earth, guess what. All roads lead to Rome, all roads lead yo your soul, your destiny, your purpose. So what does that mean?

It means when you come to a moment where your brain believes there are choices to be made, slow your brain down. Tell it that there is no wrong answer, and even if there was it doesn't matter because your heart knows the way. You're heart knows where you need to go to get home. So ask it. Ask your heart, not "what way is the quickest?" but "what way will get me there, with the most joy and laughter, with the most heartache and pain, and with the most revelation of my true self?" Because baby that's what is all about!

Listen to your heart and slow down your brain, and remember never hold any shame.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Natural Law- It's Easier than You Think (If you want to be a rebel, be kind.)


This is a piece that I channeled for Plymouth Spiritualist Church last May. From the Unverise, through me, to all of you:
Photo found here.
Natural is a descpiptive account of the way in which the Universe "works". This is why Natural Law is eternal and universal. It is operative in all dimensions and in all times. We have a choice to work with the laws- thus developing spiritual maturity, or against them, which will result in stifling that growth. 

I know that many of you will say that these words are not mine. They are. They were meant for your ears and to come from this young woman's mouth. I know that many of you will question her motives, but do not for they are pure. I need you to listen to her story. I will make sure that you find meaning for it in your hearts.

Natural law isn't an actual rule. It is more like a given in a math equation. Law makes it seem like something that has to be followed, but this is not true it is simply something that is. I have often said that those who do not live by my law shall perish, but what was meant by those stiffly rehearsed and misplaced words was this: those who do not understand and work with the rhythm of the Universe will be separated from love, from light, from comfort, and from grace. Natural Law is not a law that leads to punishment; it is a given, that if not seen and taken into account will confuse and complicate the equation, that is known, as life as the journey.

Brandi loves the concept of simplicity. She believes that the world is much simpler than cynics believe, and this is a belief natural law. The belief that there is a given, that there is rhythm, that there is cycles and that if we get out of our own way  we can begin to be part of nature the organic parts of life again. This wouldn't mean that we would stop feeling excitement or even fear and dread. This would simply mean that we would take it as a given, excitement and fear would be natural something that we could not search for because it was already ours or something we should avoid because it was meant to be in our possession.

We would begin to understand that there is a natural flow to things, that our souls have a purpose that our missions in life are vibrant unique and meaningful, and that we would come to learn more, enjoy more, achieve more and succeed in more  adventures if we simply let our souls, let natural law, lead the way.

I said earlier that those who did not live by the law shall perish. They shall waste away to nothing. They shall no longer be seen as assets in the eyes of society. The will become meaningless, purposeless, and will lose their drive.

They will no longer be part of the symphony, but an outlier on some mathematicians line graph.

Natural law is not meant to be followed, nature law is meant to be lived. Natural law is meant to be given. Natural law is a gift that is meant to be used. I have given it to you. Use it to succeed, to flourish, to uncover depths and depths of harmony and beauty. Natural law is not a constraint but the road to freedom.

From the time Brandi was small, I was with her, guiding her, loving her, protecting her and trying to make her listen. I do this with all of my children, but each soul, each piece of the puzzle is different. Each of you is unique. Brandi as well. Part of her mission was to stand her in front of you today to tell the story of Pancho. To tell the story of a man who really is changing the world one heart at a time.
Photo Found at Waging Nonviolence

Now, Pancho is a kind man, stands about 5 feet 10 inches tall. Lives in a world where he listens to the Universe and sees the law of harmony the law of synergy, the law of cause and effect, and the law of attraction as simple givens; part of the equation of life.

He sees the world as a masterpiece that has already been created. His job isn't to create anything grander than what the Universe has already given; but to simply uncover the painting, uncover the symphony that is at this moment in time covered in layers and layers of fear and desperation.

Pancho is a kind man, a slow man, an intuitive man, a man who really has recently begun to listen for the music that is lying beneath all of the noise. Her hears it in pieces and wants to share it will all that he can. If enough people begin to listen and peel away the noise that masks it, he is sure everyone will be able to hear the entire piece someday. He has made it his mission- his loving service to uncover it piece by piece, and share it with you all.

Pancho is a man that understands natural law, but understands it through his heart, not his mind. He feels it in his body and his blood pumps it through his veins. Pancho is a man that needs to be described. Without a picture he needs to be felt. So, do close your eyes.

Picture a man that is radiating truth, but doesn't even understand fully what it is. Yes, a channel.

Channels are wonderful beautiful people, but they are not even halfway aware of all the wisdom that they give freely to the world every day. Channels do not need to understand all of the knowledge that they bring to the world. Channels just have to trust that they are open and full of love and that what needs to come through will get to the right people at the right time in the right place. Pancho trusts this. He is in rhythm. Channels also need to take care of themselves and intentionally work and focus on keeping in rhythm.

Pancho does this through the simplest form of meditation there is-- stillness and silence. He draws the Universe in with no agenda other than cleansing his mind and body. He becomes part of the rhythm and doesn't fight any of the natural laws that others claim bind them to the ground.

Pancho breathes out pride and jealousy, but most importantly exhaustion, and in return is infused with new strength, clarity and love. It really is a masterful practice.

So, picture a man who radiates this light, but a man who doesn't even recognize the light that he gives away.

Now, he knows he is a channel make no doubt about that. It is his purpose, his mission, his reason for being but he only takes the time to refine it. He doesn't plan how it will work, who he will touch, where it will go. He knows that the natural laws of the Universe will take him to where he needs to be.

Picture this man dressed in white, Ghandi's face embroidered on his back, his feet often bear, and his bald head covered by a balck beret.
Photo by: Rish O. Find more photos here.

His face isn't clean shaven. His whiskers are slightly gray, but his eyes are clear. They remind you of the eyes of a four year old-- excited, playful, intelligent, precise and proud. They squint just a little and then he takes your hand and pulls you in for a hug. He says, “Hola, me llamo es Pancho. My name is Pancho. I come from the land the call Mexico, and I am a Citizen of the Planet Earth. I have come here today to tell you that I love you.”

He says it all with a genuine smile and an openness that you cannot comprehend. How do you respond to that you ask? It feels as if he has just landed from another planet or maybe YOU have you are not sure.

But all of a sudden you realize that he has touched you. He has opened your eyes to something new, and just in a few simply stated and true sentences. You know that he isn't lying about the “I love you” part. You know this so well because you can feel it on your skin, and it is making you feel  highly uncomfortable because if this saintly man in white knew anything about who you really were he would take that back in a heartbeat.

This man is no saint, and he certainly would not.

And he isn't lying about the bit about being from Mexico either. You can tell by his playfully strong accent that he speaks Spanish just as fluently if not more gracefully than the English words that form on his lips.

But the other piece, “I am a Citizen of the Planet Earth.”
I come from a land that has no boarders only names. I come from a land where we live freely and move freely, where there is enough for everyone and where life does not end  because a map says it has to.

There are no dead zones--strips of land where you will be killed if you are found crossing without the right papers or privileges. This is simply the Planet Earth a whole, round sphere where land meets ocean and ocean meets land. Every piece connected to the other. Gates are gone, fences are torn down, desserts no longer house displaced nomads because there is space for everyone where the vegetation is lush and no one is turned away. This is the land of my brother Pancho, and this is the land of Natural Law.

There are no big black lines that say that one may live here and the other may not. No, big black lines that say you are welcome, but you will be put in the stockades.

No lines that leave some with resources and others without. This is the real Planet Earth. This is the real Symphony that I have created. Your arbitrary lines, machinegun-infested barbed-wire fences and refugee-no-man-lands are your creation. Creations from the fear that I did not give my children enough to survive. I did. I promise. I have to live by my promise.

Pancho sees the masterpiece and will help you and others uncover the symphony.
Now, I know some of you are lost in my metaphors. I understand that. I understand the need for practical words for a practical time. I can give you this as well. Pancho is a man just like you.. Pancho went to graduate college at the University of Berkeley. He went to study astrobiology, but he didn't know that yet.

He thought he was meant to be an astrophysicist- a man who taught about the stars during the day and studied them at night.

He wanted to show the world how the Universe worked, to bring people into the reality that he had already known, there is rhythm to life, that inanimate objects were full of pulsating rippling energy that changed the way we felt. That a rock ten thousand light years away, really did affect us here on earth.

He thought he was interested in energy and power surges in the skies, turns out he was also interested in the energy and power surges in people.

How can you contain the energy that each individual holds and turn it into something productive, loving, beneficial, and enlightening? How can we help people gain power without using it to over power and dampen the whole system?

This it turns out is the path of an astrobiologist--a man or woman who studies the universe and asks what is life and how do we sustain it? What is life and what is its relationship to energy, to power, to change, to ripples in the sky? And what is life and where and how does it exist?

And one other very important question, what is life and how does that life mirror the world around it. Simply, put “if it is true that we are all made up of star stuf, how does the life in a body mirror the brightness of a star?”
But I did promise less metaphor, so here we go.

Pancho came to the University of Berkeley to become a scientist for the people. This was not a reasonable request at this University at this time. It may one day be, but not in the year 2004.

In 2004 science was about money, about power, and about security. Pancho didn't agree. The University of California was responsible and is responsible for a very, very large portion of the nuclear weapons produced in the United States.
Pancho decided that he could not be tied to a organization that believed science's purpose was to kill and destroy, and not to uncover and show. He left the program after trying very hard to show the administration and other doctoral candidates, as well as younger students that the really was going against natural law.
He was not heard by those with the power, power that was given and strengthened by the silence of the people, even if it was done so unknowingly, and left the institution.

There were many other adventures that Pancho took on after that, some may seem infantile and immature to some, such as living in a tree that the University was threatening to cut down, and did successfully in the end, but they were all acts of love from a man that had used science and grace to uncover the intricate connections between every living thing and ever object hidden or otherwise in the world. That tree was more than a tree. It was part of a well designed ecosystem. It was shelter and nourishment for many of my creations. That tree was part of a plan, and those who wished to remove it were not listening to the rhythms of the Universe they were not looking for ways to work within the givens. This they would have slowed them and progress down.

Pancho went on to work for the community, for and with the people of the City of Berekley and then on to the surrounding cities of Berkeley and San Francisco, his namesake.


He went deeper into his practice of channeling and listening to the flow and rhythms of the Universe. He simply sat again with no agenda other than to be taken into the rhythm so that he could learn to trust it more, feel it more in everyday states, and move with the plans of the Universe instead of against it.

He moved further and further into a life of nonviolence, a true follower of Ghandi he realized that it wasn't enough to t try to stop others from destroying the delicate balance of the Universe and piling more and more layers of debris on the masterpiece, he couldn't just try to stop them. He had to try to teach them as well. He had to show them portions of the picture, let them listen to pieces of the symphony. Show them that there were ways to live in harmony with the Natural Laws. He had to really create the space to be the change that he wished to be in the world.

So, he started farming. It was simple and direct and to the point.

“See, look at this beautiful food. It was given to me because I deserve it. I was not given it freely. I had to be part of the process. I gave it my time and now it will give me its nourishment, but you my brother need some of that nourishment as well. I have taken my fill. I do not need anymore. Please, smile and take this for yourself. I only take what I need nothing more.”

Pancho began working at a free farm in San Francisco giving away fresh healthy hand grown produce to men women and children who could not have afforded it otherwise. He gave away food, but also created community inviting people back to the farm week after work, helping others to understand the joy of growing, of working side by side with the rules of the Universe.

He told stories, and gave hugs, and made everyone who came through feel loved. He never earned a single penny for his troubles but was always taken care of in one way or another.

He had many and is still having many adventures, but each one had the same purpose to teach people that they were not alone, to end the isolated state where people had to figure out there problems alone, to show others that love could solve anything, as long as that love was put into action, and to build networks where love was the focus and where people learned to listen to the Universe, and trust that there was a larger plan.

Now, the story gets a little more stressful because Pancho was living the life of a nomad, with a soft spot for growth and creation and harmony and peace, and not that of a scientist who needed more funding from this source, and more attention from this funder.

He lost his visa, and became “an illegal.”

He was told that he was no longer an active or beneficial member of the large community known as the United States. He didn't care. In his heart he knew that there was no land that he was not a citizen of.

His allegiance was to the people of the planet Earth and he knew no other way than to serve them than to serve where he was--to teach, to light and to question rules and regulations wherever he was.

He continued to work for the Bay area not receiving a penny, and therefore not capable of receiving a work visa. Days, months, year went by and Pancho found himself in the middle of Occupy Oakland.

He believed in the cause, but not the strategy of many of the participants. Occupy Oakland was a brainstorming of dissatisfied people who believed in equality, and were tired of money and social elitism ruling the world. They wanted to find a way to convince the world that money was not the only way to find, gain or control power.
Occupy Oakland really was a conversation about power and love when you really take away the frustration and the isolationism.  But Pancho went knowing that there were some people that were less than ready to talk about community and would rather see the groups with the most power be taken away in carts and buried with shovels.
Pancho knew that there was very little that he could physically do to end the violence without making its roots stronger.

He and his friends, heard that the camp was going to be raided by police in November of 2011. They went there hours before the raid, ready for it to take place. They went to channel, light, love and peace. They went to make the rhythms of the Universe more evident. They went to slow people down and open the door. They did but not wide enough yet.

Pancho was arrested and taken to jail. He was found to be illegal in this country, and then was taken to ICE where he was put into solitary confinement. He was given a red jump suit and a tooth brush, some toilet paper and a pen.

Pancho, as you would imagine can be as silent as a mouse when he is listening to the Universe, but as talkative as talkative can be outside of those moments. Speaking is a way to connect. While he was in solitary he spent most of his time meditating and channeling, But when he was with others being moved from prison to ICE and back and forth to meet with his lawyers, he talked and talked as love. He connected. He showed others the masterpiece beneath the fear and disappointment.

 There is no end to Pancho' s story it still goes on, and now it has gotten even larger. It now has grown to include you. This message was not for your ears it was for your heart. It was not meant for your brains; it was meant for you but for your bodies.
Do.

Think before you act, yes, but act!

Take this message this story, this love, and do. Help to find the masterpiece underneath. Show those around you that there are other ways of living. Do notjudge, meet people where they are at and uncover the masterpiece, especially the masterpieces that are with in them, the ones that dance in their hearts and tries so desperately to radiate off of their skin. Show them that there are givens:

  • There is enough.
  • There is love.
  • You are capable of solving the problems that you create.
  • What you give out to the world will multiply, and come back to you tenfold.
  • Those that you meet were drawn o your energy, want to meet better people? Change your energy.
  • Love your neighbor as you love yourself.
  • Listen to the Universe because the answers are there.
  • There is a reason for everything and everything is beautiful when seen through the right eyes.
  • There is nothing less than is needed to create heaven on earth, and not a piece of the puzzle was thrown into the wrong box. EVERYTHING, even the hard or messy parts have its purpose, but DO NOT I repeat DO NOT get stuck on that one piece. Place it the picture, and move on to find the rest.


Show this to people. 
Listen to me more. 
Breathe more. 
Slow down the pace. 
I will show you more, and more, and more intricacies of Natural Law, but you must use math. 
Do not hoard it, or you are not solving the equation, just gaining knowledge. Act.
I love you all. 
You are my loves, my light, my peace. Let me be yours. Amen.



Monday, January 14, 2013

Pain Is Real

Went from stone to stone, house to house, heart to heart looking for an answer and this is what I found:

Photo found here.
When you  are sad and lonely, and laughter seems to drive you insane; when your car radio seems to have it out for you, only playing cheesy love songs that no one who has actually ever been in love can even relate to; when it seems like your whole life has just been one big joke, just remember it really will be okay.

I know that people always say, "well, it could be worse," or "well, there are people out there who have it worse than you, no food, no running water, no indoor plumbing," or even worse, "come back to me when you have a real problem." After statments like these, many of us will automatically shut down, take our pain and devalue it, deny it, and even worse, become ashamed of it.

Do not devalue another persons pain, this is a message directly from the Source. Do not devalue your own pain.

A family may have less than you on their dinner table, but does that mean they have too little or that you have too much? An elder in you village may be very ill, but is that a curse or the cycle of life?

Do not create someone's pain, either. Do not tell them that they should be unhappy, and grieving and in mourning, if they are not.

Photo found here.
Your job as a soul, your job as a human, you job as a community member is to help alleviate pain, help recognize it and dismiss it.

Do not give it more power by forcing others to hide it, and do not create, imagine and produce more where it does not stand, just because for you it appears that it should be present.

Allow others to be open and honest about their pain. Do not force them to hide it. Do not force them to deny it. The deeper they burry it, the more fertile the soil becomes in those dark depths of the psyche. Do not give it power. Do not give it strength.

I want all of my children, to live a life of happiness and joy. I want all of my children to learn to adapt, to learn the difference between dark and light. I want all of my children to find peace in the face of fear, but none of that can happen without acceptance of the dark. None of that can happen with out acknowledgement of the pain. None of that can happen with out the help of peers. None of that can happen without community, patience, selflessness, and love.

Awounded knee, may be less severe than a wonded heart. The loss of a limb may be less of a handicap than the loss of a mother. And a serving of rice and beer may be more filling than a night alone in an empty apartment with no one to speak with.

Rember that it is not your job to qaulify or quanity pain, but simply to acknowledge it, accept it, believe in it, and send it on its way. You are your brother's keeper, and you are your own best friend.

Be safe, My Loves. Be safe.

Amen.
Photo found here.










Sunday, January 6, 2013

Progression of the Soul- Less is More

Photo found here
Time is a funny thing. We seem to think that it only moves in one direction. It forever pushes onward and upward. Our understanding of progress is linked to time. As time passes the world progresses, as we grow we progress. We seem to think that things, all things, start out simple, underwhelming, and miniscule, and that over time things always evolve. They grow, they become more mature. The become more complex, multi-faceted, and more useful. For some reason, we all seem to go through life thinking this way:

Evolution is always for the best. Growth is always needed. Bigger is better. More is better. And time only flows one way,onward and upward.

I am here to tell you another story.

From the place where Spirit dwells, from the place where the heart reigns freely, from the place where all that ever is, will be, and was sits side by side; arms linked and hearts tied, I bring you this:

Peace to all who read these words. I am God. It's nice to finally make your acquaintance for some of you. To others I simply say, welcome back. I am glad that you have found your way to these words once again. I am sorry for your state of affairs at the moment. Please, help those around you to believe that I have never left you; that there is no punishment for actions of the past; that I am not here to cause pain or revel in more destruction. Please, tell your sisters and brothers that I do not enjoy misery and that I do not judge or condemn. Please tell them all that they are my breath, my love, and my light; that I want to see them succeed, to persevere, to growth, to change, to challenge, and to love.

Photo found here
Please, help others to see me more clearly. This is the first step to healing the planet. People need to stop accentuating my rumbles and tantrums and punishment. My earth might rock, my seas might rage, my temples may fall, and my ancestors may have reported beheadings, and plagues, and torture in my name, but these are not the signs of an angry and vengeful God. These are the signs of both unbalanced life forces, as well as natural shifts of energy, along with the ramblings of men of power and wealth, full of fear and full of self doubt.

I give you a new understanding of me.

I am Progress. I am not material gain. I am not intellectual prowess. I am not a linear stamp on your time sheet. I am God. I am movement and motion. I am cause and effect. I am Progress.

When your soul begins to wake up. I am there. When you find yourself alone in bed and thinking, "Something just doesn't feel right. Yesterday, I was satisfied with every aspect of my life, but now, I need something more," this is Me. When you are in the middle of a board game and decide to walk away because you are just not interested, this is Me. When you are 75 years old and decide that it is time to go back to playing in the dirt letting the worms crawl through you fingers, letting the dampness fill your lungs, letting the trees, and bugs, and the flowers, and the worms talk to you again, this is Progress.

Whenever you reconnect to your own heart, this is Me. When you finally settle down with a good book for the night, but find yourself needing to throw the book in the garbage because the trashiness of the love story was honestly making you sick, this is Me. When you find you're reconnecting to the world around you, this is Me. When you find yourself reaching out to people who comforted you in your past, people that you overlooked because they didn't fit the image of the life you wanted to create; when you stop trying so hard to create something, but decide to cooperate with what the Spirit within you is already creating, this is Me.

Progress is not more, people. Progress is less. Progress is about less control. Less financial stress. Less worry. Less panic. Less pride. Less ego. More community. More Trust. More patience. More flow.

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Less is more. Less of the concrete foundations, roads, and pavement that dampens the flow. Less of the privatization that keeps people out. Less of the fear that keeps emotions in. People evolve. Communities evolve. They grow. They prosper. But the true growth, the ever lasting growth is not in complexity. It is in simplicity. The amoeba has lasted for eons. Because it is simple. It is basic. It can adapt.

Time is tool in all of this. Time is circular. You will find that young children have more of an understanding of time and space than any adult. As we grow and evolve, as our souls shine brighter and our egos stay out of the way, we become as small children are, loving, caring, trusting, inventive, faithful, and honest. We speak from our hearts. We ask questions. And we see things that can't possibly be there. Time allows us to come back to ourselves. Time is not always onward and upward. Time sometimes brings us right back to the beginning. To a simpler us, to a calmer us, a more rambunctious and tolerable us. Time is a tool, not a fixed box.

And for now. Spread the message. Progression is different for everyone, but progress is not always more, and it is often less.

Peace be with you, and blessings to you and all that you meet. Amen.



Friday, December 21, 2012

Finally the Day We Have All Been Waiting For

Activation is vital, and today is a wonderful day to celebrate and visualize activation.

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Welcome to the new dawn. Welcome to the latest renaissance of the human soul. Welcome to the latest golden age- an age of understanding, of empathy, of perseverance, and of soul, of heart, of breath. You have made it to the next part of the journey. You as a people, you as a collective, you as a species. Welcome, welcome, welcome!

I have a simple message for you today. It is simple and full of light and love. It is a simple "Welcome."

There are no marching orders. There are no lists of things that must get done, now that the shift has become the strongest and most visible. Do not be confused, there is a lot of work to be done, but for now, simply welcome it. Allow yourself to feel the difference. Allow yourself to feel an existence that is destined for movement, for motion, for great change and great clarity. Allow yourself to feel an existence that is full of grace, of life with purpose, of greater connection than ever experienced before. Allow yourself to feel the flow. Allow yourself to feel the grace. Allow yourself to feel the endless possibilities.

This is the first step to activation. The change must come from within. The desire must come from within. The hope, the faith, the power must come from within. The first step to activation is awareness. It is time to become aware that the world is changing. It is time to become aware that your life is important, and that you are needed for this global revolution of the human spirit. It is time to feel for yourself that you are connected to the ebb and flow of millions of other souls.

Take the next few weeks to pay attention to your surroundings. Ask yourself:

  • Are there visible ways that people have changed? 
  • Are there new places, people, and interests that I feel drawn to? 
  • Are there new ways that I find myself looking at things? 
  • What does my body tell me is going on? 
  • What does work feel like, now? 
  • Are my goals and actions aligned? 


Just observe. Take note of things that you notice have changed-- simple vibrations, simple thoughts, simple perspectives. Then share the observations that you make.

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The second step to activation is community. Awareness then community.

Don't hide away any longer. Don't stay separated from your hearts or your souls, or your soulmates. Find them. Call out to them. Now is the time.

It's not to late for anything, for every moment is just the beginning, and let me assure you that this is the beginning of the most amazing thing to ever take place on this planet.

Peace on Earth and goodwill to ALL men, woman and children.
Peace and Earth, both inside and out
Peace of heart, mind, and body
Peace of life can always be found in the pace of life, just for future reference.

Continue to work hard, but understand that play is part of your work. Your only job is to be the best and most content YOU, you can possibly be.

Love and Light, your God and her God; they are all one in the same.
Peace, Light, Love and Laughter.


Sunday, December 9, 2012

Utopia of the Soul

Time to tell it, as I hear it. The following all comes from a very strong source. I will call it Love. You may call it what you wish, any name or title that resonates with you and fills you with calm and peace. He speaks to all of us below. I am humbled to be a channel for all of us:

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Today was an important day:
I slept under the stars.
I rode on the back of a horse.
I saw a rhinoceros for the first time.
I ate with a spoon.
I was given a place to rest.
A friend came back into my life after years of separation.
The salty ocean water cleaned all of wounds- those on my body and those festering in my soul. I heard a baby laugh, and saw my lovers cry.
I held hands with the most beautiful girl, and a sang songs of praise in a humble church.
I put food on my table for my brilliant children.
I had little around me, but craved nothing.
I smiled as I sat without a chair upon the ground.
I taught a bird how to fly again.
I sold my house so that I could continue to follow my dream as a traveling musician.
I learned a prayer that soothed my soul, and heard a lecture from my mother that finally helped me to understand.
I read a good book, and saw a horrible movie, but it was great because I got to make fun of it with my best friend in the entire world.
I found a soul mate on the L train.
And I finally got a chance to take a walk and clear my mind.
I worked hard today, but began to understand what I really want out of life.
I learned to say no, and I learned to accept gifts with a simple, "thank you."

I am you, and you did all of these things today, and I thank you for this. I thank you for building an experience for me. I thank you for living. I thank you for feeling. I thank you for building a world that I want to live in.

Everyday, I sense, and feel, and am, both good and bad. The bad is part of the plan ladies and gents! The bad still helps us to build together. It helps you to heal; yes, you heard it hear first, pain is the first step to healing. If it doesn't hurt, you won't think to address it. Think about it!

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I also was robbed today.
I found out that I had cancer.
My baby died seconds after she breathed her first breath.
I was terrified by a man in black, and I lost my job.
My husband swore at me and then broke a bottle of whiskey against the wall.
My sister tried to kill herself, and I didn't even feel that bad about it.
My mom threw up today in the sink, and she was so drunk that I had to clean it up.
An army of bandits, or guerrillas  as they like to be called, ransacked my home and would have stolen and killed my daughter had she been home.
My baby broke his arm trying to crawl out of his crib, and a violent storm took the roof of of my home.

I am sorry for many things today but am too proud to apologize.
I hurt my mother, when I told her I thought she was a slut. I sang a song to her to heal her pain, but it was in my head. I'm not strong enough to face her.
I told the man of my dreams that I couldn't marry him, just because my father does not approve. I sang a song of regret, but I'm too frightened to face my father.

I rejoiced in a birth.
I forgave myself.
I laughed so loudly that everyone around me joined in.
My cat comforted me, and I realized that I'm not really alone.
I found beauty in the sunset, and realized that there is something to all of the, "We are One mumbo-jumbo."

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It is hard for all of us to understand we are One, that life is interconnected, that there is balance, and that Utopia is a place where we are free to grow as we need to, where life is not restricted or prejudged, where honesty reins, not perfection. A Utopia is a place where we can ask questions and receive answers, where people are free to live a life that is authentic and meaningful, where everyone is safe, but no one is protected. Where people help each other to listen to their souls. Where people are free to work out their demons in a way that is safe and sane, in a way where they can release the energies that no longer serve them and have never connected them, without destroying anyone else's soul.

But this Utopia is not without conflict. This Utopia is not with out death, or disease, or pain, or betrayal. This Utopia is not without fear. Fear may separate you from God, from Me, from the Earth, but how can you really understand connection and the power that comes from that connection without it being lost to you?

This Utopia isn't without heartache and grief. This Utopia is safe, it is sane, but it allows all feelings all emotions, and private thoughts and desires. Everyone will not get along in this Utopia, not now, not at this point in the evolution of Spirit. We must first understand what it is truly like to be thriving, blessing, unique individuals before we can completely and correctly harness the power of Oneness.

I wish for you a Utopia. I will help you build it, once you decide how to make it work. I have given you all the resources you need. There is more than enough for all of you. I will help create safety for all. I will help create life and help love to flow, but you first must acknowledge that you want this, and then you must ask for it. You must be brave enough to ask for a place where everyone can be authentic, and be smart enough to understand that pain, and grief, and polarization will be present but with a purpose. Everyone must be welcomed and included, or your place of perfection fail. Someone left on the outside will seek to tear it to pieces.

You must allow people who are weak of Spirit in your walls. You must allow them to figure out their journeys for themselves. You must allow them to make mistakes. You must all them to fall down, and you must never turn your backs on them.

Your police and firefighters and armies are meant to serve and protect. Take away their weapons and arms that destroy, but still give them the power to protect. Teach them how to sense a soul that is in crisis. Teach them how to help humans release negative energies. Teach them that conflict is needed for growth, and that they do not need to fear discontent. Teach them to create safe spaces of release. Teach them to understand the difference between violence and growth. Teach you children the same.

I know you want to be free of pain, of despair, of disbelief, but My Children, I refuse to give you that. I refuse to take away the gift of life. And all those things are the gifts of life. They help you make sense of the world. They give value and meaning to love, understanding, and peace of mind. They also create love, understanding and peace of mind. I refuse to take away anything that makes you whole, anything that brings you back to Yourself, to Me, to Your Family.

I will help you create a Utopia, a safe haven where you can be with every emotion, with every reaction, with every argument. A Utopia where every soul is safe from being harmed, but no body is free from pain.

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I want you to understand this more than anything. I want you to understand that peace cannot be found without chaos, and that chaos cannot manage to fight itself. Chaos will eventually give way to more chaos because chaos always realigns and gives meaning to the Universe, and the cycle must start again.

People have the right to live without fear. People have the right to live in a place where that do not need to fear growth and natural progression, where they are respected as evolving beings who are far from perfect but trying. Everyone should have the right to try, to have control of their own destiny. Everyone should have the right to be free of the fear of control and dismissal. Everyone should have the right to deal with their fear of self, their fear of truth, and their fear of connection. This is the fear that separates, but later aligns.

I bring these words in peace. I will help you once you are ready. Be your own best friend, first and foremost. Get out of your own way, and then help clear the way for others. Build that Utopia in your own soul. Then help build it in the soul of others.

Because you see, Utopia exists within, and when enough of you have built it within- this place where people are free to hurt, to laugh, to sing, to dance, to explore and make mistakes, you will see that it will begin to magically manifest in little corners of the physical world. 

Heaven can only be reached within, and Heaven on Earth can only exist once enough of us have taken the time to journey within. 

Good luck, safe travels, and see you on the other-side of the curtain.

Amen.